Denial & Insanity

by Blank
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I went into imbecile mode during a crisis. I was trying tocreate a happy life when reality happened and I acted like a imbecile. This did not fit into my dream. I became a real idiot. Immature beyond measure. I have ruined my life and character,not to mention relationships. I have ruined everything. I am sorry and ask for your prayers to clean up this insane life/image I have created due to my denial/depression. You can't fix stupid, and that's what I have become. Not real or respected or who I really am. No friends now. This is not who I am and I am sorry for my inane actions and words. Denial is ugly and that's what I created. Ugly/false. I need a new life. Clean up my face and words. I have no friends. God help me please. I need people back into my life that treat me equal/straight so that I can be straight again. Right now, I'm all crooked. I didn't use to be. I am sorry.