For healing

My name is Anish.I am 25 years old.I had a problem in my body that is i had only one testis.I feel very shamed to live in the world.I am depressed and i got angry about my parents because they does not take care about this problem. My father is no more and my family is also in an critical situation. I had finished Engineering in 2009.But Still i did not go to any jobs because of this problem.In most time i think, for what purpose i had to live in the world.Please pray to god for me to solve my problem.