I FEEL GOD HAS ABANDONED ME

by Ruth
(malta)

I have been going through very rough times for 6 months now. A malicious neighbour has been making false accusations and spreading rumours. I am suffering intense depression and anxiety to the point that I am not even leaving my house and keep all the windows closed since I have developed an enormous phobia. I have been praying and begging God, either to illuminate her to stop harming me, or fer her to leave. Up till now, God hasn't answered any of my prayers. This neighbour seems to be getting all the friends in the neighbourhood, while here I am, left abandoned and isolated, and I feel so betrayed. I used to trust in God. I was convinced that he loves me, that he would never leave me alone in my troubles...but it seems He is not helping at all. How come it is written in the bible that God feeds even the birds......knock and the door will opened to you, ask..and it shall be given to you etc etc. I simply cannot understand. I am losing faith