Loss of income and inner peace

by T
(Australia)

I have had trouble earning an income for sometime despite being well educated. I have registered my name with various online employment sites and private tutoring without success.

I desperately need an income so that I can have money to return back to the US so that I don't lose my permanent residence. I would love to take a teaching appointment at Portland State Univ which has an excellent Middle East Studies program.

My physical and mental health have impacted on me since I don't have an income. I don't like to depend on my wife to give me money. It hurts me very much that as an educated person, I cannot help her despite the efforts made by me to find work. My mood fluctuate from being happy to despondent but try hard to maintain a positive attitude. When I feel down, negative thoughts drag me down a lot.

I ask the man upstairs for guidance but seem to get no answer. I don't know what more I can do.