the story of my second conversion

by Mari Roxette
(Manila, philippines)

I used to be a fanatic of horoscopes, talismans, spells and witchcraft. I was eager to learn dark magics and become a witch.

But during high school I was unhappy and alone. I became the most miserable creature of those times. Suddenly a concerned classmate introduced me to St. Therese the little flower. She said that St. Therese is a miraculous saint and there was no harm in asking anything frm the saint.

So I immediately printed a novena prayer and prayed for nine days. I prayed for my petition. But I was still unhappy. I asked another favor frm the saint and she also answered my prayer. But the gloomy state of my soul did not diminish. I have no friends. Still unsatisfied.

Then I suddenly saw myself calling to Jesus. talking to Him and pouring out my heart. I also pray novena to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and He gave it all . I experienced sudden love.

But i did not remain in such grace. I dont pray everyday and dont go to church frequently. In short , i was lost again. I came to the point that I was involved in deeper sin.

Whenever I saw the chapel's door I refused to go inside, thinking this thought.." I cant show myself to Him coz my sin is great. I am not worthy to enter this place anymore." During that time I was not aware that this was the devil's trick.

After two years of being a prodigal son, that was after I finished the third year in college, a thought came to me. I will become a fourth year student!! Until now I dont have any plans for my life. Goals nor dreams. I am afraid for graduation!! I doubt if there is any job available for a stupid one like me.

I cut out a Divine Mercy picture and hung it . Then I talked to this image as if I was talking to a friend.

I told Jesus all my sorrows, my problems and concerns. I even cried a lot. After a minute of conversation.. I heard an interior voice within me. The voice said....JUST TRUST ME... I was greatly suprised. For the first time in my life I heard a response.

I thought this was the last interior voice but He spoke again during another heart to heart talk. I said to Him... " Jesus, whenever i pray the rosary and my mom comes in.. I stop praying and pretend doing something else. She does not want to see me praying. For her , praying is wasting my time. then a voice replied.." whoever denies me here.. I will deny in My Father".. I trembled in fear and became silent. Then I remember that there is a passage in the Bible that is the same on what I heard.

I had so many unexplained stories that I experienced from Him. I hope my experience will help struggling souls.